Yeah Baby Yeah!!

Mood: :D
Reading: Under the Rainbow

I had a wonderful night and that makes me happy. I went and picked up my massage table and got the car fixed and then I went home and listened to really loud music and relaxed...a friend came over and I made a fire and got a massage by the fire...not another feeling in the world like it...*sigh* I can barely hold my head up today I am so relaxed and sleepy...
Being as emotionally challenged as I have been lately it was really just what I needed to unwind. Just close my eyes and listen to the crackle of the fire and smell the strong campfire scent coming from the direction of the fireplace...a deep breath and I was lost...candles for lighting so you can find the oil and you don't have to rely on the fire light... it was amazing. If you ever have the chance to experience anything like it don't pass it up... I never thought in a million years that I would be the one on the table... I specifically went and picked up my massage table so I could do that for a friend... but there is a first time for everything I guess. I will be returning the favor this evening... I need to keep my schooling in practice, since I'll be going to finish my hours up soon so I can take the boards and get my LMT... WAY EXCITED about that. I miss class so much and I was always a happy camper when I was going.
I have been having a pretty good time just being a hermit and when I get out I truly do have fun... I went to a baseball game the other day and then afterward I went to Embers... nice place it was my first time... I lost a bet on the game I still have to repay but I don't think I'll regret it...

I have also had many things on my mind. I am handling things with as much patience and care as I can muster...I truly think that sometimes I may just snap...so I take a step back and a deep breath and mush on...YAY for memorial day weekend...
I have a few things planned with friends and family. I hope they all work out and I don't have to work and end up missing more family time that would suck.
My mind is reeling and I hope this ride stops soon but for now to have distraction is helping the pain inside that is suffocating my feelings and making me numb... this is what I want it to be and it seems that not whole is more what it looks like.
Such is life and it will heal it will just take time and some creativity...
~much love to you all~
Hope everyone is well.